Sometimes the language barrier between my dog and I really upsets me. I need him to understand that I love him to bits and that he’s the best thing to ever happen to me. And that I feel awful on the days where I don’t give him as much attention as I’d like. And that he’s a cute little shithead. And that watching him sleep makes me feel warm inside.
“I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2am, I am gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis. I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don’t belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn’t happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don’t see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.”
“It already feels like fall, and I’m glad, because summer felt like you.”
“A couple of times in your life, it happens like that. You meet a stranger, and all you know is that you need to know everything about them.”
me: *gets attached to anyone who shows me any attention ever*
“I used to think I was tough, but then I realized I wasn’t. I was fragile and I wore thick fucking armor. And I hurt people so they couldn’t hurt me. And I thought that was what being tough was, but it isn’t.”
i feel so dumb and embarrassed after expressing any emotion
the thought of never finding someone who’s as much of a pervert as i am and who likes me as much as i like them bums me out so much
it’s like, when i’m emotionally unavailable, there’s someone who’s interested in me but when i’m emotionally available no one’s interested in me and ugh.
Being alone for as long as I have been is beginning to get to me.
do you ever wish you could just forget someone because they mean a whole lot to you but you can’t have them in any way- not as a friend and especially not a lover
and it’s not fair so it’d just be easier not having met them than missing them everyday
how do i not have cuddles right now
I don’t like letting go of people.